cute lil' kitti

oooh...

2004-03-16T20:34:21Z

You are Rainbow Brite! You bring colour into
peoples' lives. You also have a faithful horse
who can ride rainbows!

Which '80s Cartoon are You?
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I miss my Rainbow Brite blankey!! :(

Checking in

2004-03-02T20:53:52Z

Just checking in to confirm my existence. Im so sorry sissy that you've been sick and abt job thing. I wish I could have chatted up with you more..I hate talking on the phone while Im sleeping though because i dont remember a lot of things hehe. But anyways, I hope you're feeling better and that the hunt is going good. Other than that life is getting annoying.I arranged my work schedule last week so that I could have a three day weekend and it overall kinda sucked anyways. So i was annoyed that most of those days weren't as pleasing as I was planning it to be. Pretty much spent most of the time doing things other people wanted to do and spend money on others besides myself. I did finally was able to go out sat night and that sucked soo much ass as well..wasted money and my buddy got in a bar fight so turned out ugly. The only best thing this whole weekend was Sunday night when I do my weekly drive up to La Grange (near Sonora) to visit Mr. Bunny. It's wonderful being with someone you love and who loves you back indefinately. And it is always a nice drive up there, alone around the beautiful scenary (they live on top of this little mountain overlooking Don Pedro Lake). so after dealing with an emotionally stressing weekend it all turned better after driving miles and miles away from Modesto (wonder what that means? hmm..)
Next plans: to find a better paying job with better hours and to move out of my parents house so I can keep my sanity. :) cheers.

deijiko @ 2004-02-20T12:50:00

2004-02-20T20:54:35Z

Life is good. Love is great. But precious things like these are very fragile. Never take them for granted for these are the greatest blessings ever.

bleh...

2004-02-17T20:32:32Z

Well, I know it's been awhile (again) since I've posted but here I am. Hope everyone had a wonderful Valentine's day as for me I had to work all day so yay. Haha but I celebrated my Heart's day Friday night with mr. bunny. We did a little double date thing (went to watch 50 first dates) with Davon and Memo (ur hair..noooooo!!!) so had much fun..it's great hanging out with ur most favorite people and the one you love :) Other than that things are good..I kinda miss hearing from some of my friends out near the east bay (i lub u ebner!!) but it's all good. I plan on buying a cell phone in a couple of weeks after i pay off my stupid traffic ticket. Which means Ill be in s.f. the 12th of march for a court date.. oh what fun.
Ive been more physically active, been running alot so Im feeling a lot more energetic and vibrant. Well that's about it.. also planning on moving out by next month so expect an invite to a house warming party soon whoohoo!! ok that's it for now.. hope everyone has a wonderful week.

Still Recovering..

2004-02-04T22:48:41Z

Man I did it again .. must remember to save my entries or they'll dissappear like this one did.DAMN! ick.. it was a good one too..
OK ok anyways, Ill make it brief then..*sigh*
Wanted to share the most craziest night I've had in a long time. Friday night i had plans with friends to go clubbing ..turned out my bud Mel ditched me to go hang out in Turlock (which turned out shitty) so that killed my high spirits. Until i called my old buddy Damon and asked if he wanted to go clubbing with me but he told me he was going to the Fat CAt (music house and lounge) which was around the corner from where i was headed. He asked if i wanted to come and i said yes..I was excited again becuase i've never been to the Fat Cat and when Uncle Memo and Auntie Davon dropped us off it was awesome. There were already hella ppl up in there and when we got it looked crazy. There was a main dance floor surrounded by bars and and upper level where ppl can lounge with bars too and can look down at the dance floor. We were there for a friends bday party and they had a reserved VIP room which was so incredible. It was upstairs and had a balcony effect overlooking the lower level where we could see everybody.
It was totally awesome so after chilling with the crowd Damon and I headed downstairs and after a long island ice tea and other drinks we were shaking it on the floor. It seemed that we were the craziest couple dancing because a lot of people were looking at us while they were dancing (high-school style). Usually I get really nervous cuz I don't like ppl looking at me but being a bit buzzed i didn't care. We were dancing so much we were hella sweating!! It was fun but tiresome. When we headed out back to the bar this cute guy asked if i wanted to dance with him but i told him i needed to drink and to ask me later..so more chilling and chatting..some other guy started to chat me up and we danced a bit but when he asked me for my number i gave him a fake one. I know that sounds mean but i was a bit buzzed and i was waiting for damon to come back from bthroom..so later we were still dancing..sweating and going crazy till they started to close..my legs were killing me and so were my feet (dancing on heels!) And we all chilled at home with Memo and Davonand joane and her friends who went to the 16+ club right around the corner from FatCAt so that night was soo extreme.. I have never felt soo free and young in such a loong time and I don't think Ill ever forget it..They also gave us free tickets for next fri so I dunno if Im going to go but Mel wanted to go after kicking himself in the pants for ditching me..so Ill probably treat him out, hey what are friends for? I don't know how long this club-bug will last..:)

FRIDAY!!!WHOOHOO!!

2004-01-31T01:08:07Z

Yep, it's finally friday and I just got paid so that means time to party!!! whoohoo.. well my night of fun is limited since I do have other responsibilities to take care of (car payment, etc.) but tonight is club night and me and my girls are going to hit the dance floor and shake our tooshies off..hehe..I know things will go great but before that we're all going to go see Joane play basketball and beat Johansen High! Anyways, hope sis has a great plane ride to see her "hon" on lubby-day and don't worry I won't forget your boken :) Time to sweat it on the dance floor everyone have a great weekend!!

sigh

2004-01-29T21:00:08Z

Cinderella!

What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
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soo true!! well story-wise anyway hehe

i love that!

2004-01-29T20:47:15Z

cuddle and a kiss on the forehead - you like to be
close to your special someone and feel warm,
comfortable, and needed

What Sign of Affection Are You?
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*great minds think alike, sis*..bleah
(my cereal is soggy..grr)

jeah!!..ahem i mean.. cool!!

2004-01-28T20:51:17Z

-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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sounds about rite :)

2004-01-27T21:28:25Z

You're just the happy go-lucky type. You might have
your pet peeves, but other than that, you're
mainly calm. Blending in with your
surroundings, you're the type of person who
everyone likes. Usually it's you who cracks
jokes at social gatherings - after all,
laughter is the best medicine. Sometimes you
pretend to be stupid, but in all actuality, you
could be the next Einstein.

What Type of Soul Do You Have ?
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It's a disease!!!

2004-01-23T18:52:44Z

Well checking in to announce that I'm still alive..again. It's been awhile I know but I've had a very off week. Ever since my birthday I've been having a different perspective on things going on in my life. I've decided to make some changes, well try to, and it seems that its going to be a slow prcoess. I'm not going to change myself or anything-I like how I am but just certain things in my life. I'm still having a hard time finding a new job out in the bay but still keeping on that. School started on the 20th and my class starts today so Im going to drive all the way to Hayward to check it out.
Right now Im dwelling in this "im so fat" mentality. Well Ive had this thought my whole life so I'm determining it as a disease. My whole life I've always felt too big..I accepted the fact that me being laotian should be naturally thick/big boned especially if we have some french in our blood. But I've always had to struggle with my weight.. I always watched what I ate and if its something unhealthy I'd make sure to burn it off..but I'm just hating myself because I hardly see any change when I try so hard to slim down. Yesterday I ran about a mile before I went to work and it felt great but now today I look like "ms. blob". I just hate how I think like this and I consider this one of my weaknesses. But like I do with everything else negative Ill try to overcome this and work hard until I'm satisfied. I plan to join a gym by next month so Im hoping things will look better in the future. Im also starting kickboxing and dance this semester so yeah.
Other than that things are good.. I still feel lonely all the time..it's like my life is off course with everyone else.. oh well.. geez sorry this was so depressing. Just had to get that out.. bleahh..>

another wrinkle....*sniff...

2004-01-14T22:19:56Z

Well, I finally turned 22 yesterday. It wasn't the greatest moment in my life..I just feel older and yesterday just seemed like any other day. I also had to work which helped assured me it was just another day. I don't like that I'm 22 I already miss being 21 but that's life and aging is inevitable. I did get to spend a few days with my bunny so that was more than a gift but he had a bit of car trouble so not as good on his end.
Anyways, was thinking about throwing a little get together at my place this fri night but not sure will prob just stay out in s.f. and go to a bar or sumthing since davon will be with memo up there and i don't want to go home by myself :( Hopefully I'll finally be able to get my rims on my lancer though .. I've been patiently waiting for a while and Im excited , hope I get them. Im probably going to throw a little shin-dig at the bowling alley here in town Sun night so if anyone wants to come just ask or ask Knotty (davon) other than that I think I can handle this year being 22.. I just have to liven it up a bit.
School also starts on the 20th..Memo and I are taking Kickboxing , Hip Hop dance and Judo (a lot of physical activities) wish I could take more classes but Chabot is an hour away from where I live -since I haven't found a job out there yet- so I'd have to commute twice a week. Anyways, looking forward to a new year that started off shitty (have to pay traffic ticket this fri) and will hopefully end off alive at least. Hope everyone enjoys their week and HAPPY BURFFDAY KUDO! LUVIES!!!

shortest week of the year so far >

2004-01-11T06:22:52Z

Well this has got to be about the fastest week of the year so far because it felt like just yesterday when I got my ticket in s.F last sat. Quite depressing, time is flying by and I need to get on top of things. I got my classes ready for school in Hayward but still no luck with the job part so good thing i got like fri/sat classes (oddly) so I can "try" to maintain my job down here while Im still looking. Bad feeling I got off work tonight a 9 30pm, I get home at 10 pm and Davon and Jo-lo are gone! I guess the dread head went with her dread head boyfriend to s.f. and Jo-lo's at a party so *le sigh* Im alone :( Id go run over to S.F to party with Kudo but I don't think Ill make it seeing how my last trip there went. I guess Ill just organize myself and workout in a bit. I always have to do something productive (it's an obsession) Anyways, as the week goes by I don't even really notice that this is my last week being 21. I turn 22 on tues (jan. 13th) and somehow I find it more depressing than joyful. I haven't done anything so crazy this past year just lots of parties and trips. Im hoping that Ill have a decent bday (even though i have to work that night..arggh) and feel more younger than I did my year being 21 (I feel 45!) But nothing a little yoga won't fix eh? hehe. Anyways, I think us girls are going to meet up at Meg's and head out to hang with Ebbie tmw. Sounds almost definite but need big sis to call me *ahem*. Ok hope everyone has a great weekend!!

Un-happy New Year to me... > < *

2004-01-06T21:05:19Z

Man what a New year this is for me so far. Not only did I have to work till 11 30 pm new years eve I arrived at the party late because I had to find my already drunk friend around Modesto so he can come to the party with me. I also did not get a new years kiss :( and didn't feel like drinking because I was too stressed and already tired (seeing how we finally got to the party at 2am). so that was that and thought I'd need a big break from everything (especially this town) so us girls and some of our guy friends went to Kudo's fri night, chilled. Another sign that Im at the bottom of God's toilet was when i got pulled over in s.f. for no damn reason where that dick of a cop said i ran a red light which is so untrue because none of my friends saw that i did and he put his lights on AFTER i pulled over and i didn't pull over because of him i pulled over because we stopped at an atm so Mel can get some cash! Im like WTF!! If I did run a red like he said i did why didn't he put his lights on right then instead of noticing that i pulled over thinking that i pulled over because i knew i did something wrong : which i didn't! arrggh.. so yeah other than that i also got chewed out at work for calling in sat and didn't want to do anything anymore except go home. BLAH!! And now today the Parents went to the doctor this morning because dad said he is having chest pains or his heart hurts so now im worried off my ass!! So what else can go wrong? Is there anymore shit-holes my life wants to fall into? I don't know oh well.. all i can do is stick around to find out right? haha oh well.. hope my birthday will be somewhere near decent. Hope everyong is having a better year than I am.

Legalos..eeeek!!!...*drools..

2003-12-30T00:00:01Z

Well I finally saw LOTR:ROTK last night. Yes I know its a shock its taken me this long to finally see it but hey im a busy woman! So yeah, saw it last night and its a great feeling to finally finish the trilogy. I love every minute of it and gave me as a viewer great closure.
Anyways, turns out I have to work new years eve until 11 30pm!! Isn't that insane?! But Im going to sign out early so Im pretty sure itll be slow and they'll let me go early and go party with the girls at our friends in Patterson. Whoohoo! Another party can't wait! It's been awhile so got to get my "groove" (or lack thereof) on. hehe Anyways, a very gloomy Monday as most of you guys can see..its raining..yep..probly why I slept in till noon too..>< but I don't have to work till 6 30pm since Im off holiday shift now so that means more me time! I just sat down and watch Indiana Jones : Raiders of the Lost Ark..I swear a perfect job would be just to sit down and watch movies all day and get paid for it teehee. Us girls also have a great weekend planned ahead. Im going to be having a four day weekend starting this Thurs. and we're finally going to venture out to the bay area again. (its been so long!!) And I miss all my friends out there so can't wait to see you guys!! Plan to hang out with Kudo and his clan Fri night and then hang with Ebner Sat and then head back Sun morning to throw our dear little brother his 12th Birthday party. So yeah so much fun planned ahead and can't wait!! Anyways, hope everyone has a great week and will probably see some of u guys hehe....oh and by the way Legalos (Orlando Bloom) is one of the most beautiful guys on earth!!

must... burn.. calories..!! >

2003-12-28T08:47:14Z

well I hope everyone had as wonderful a Christmas like I did. :) Mr.Bunny actually showed up like he said he would and we got to exchange gifts xmas eve and it was great. Got a great book from my favorite author (Erica Spindler), "Finding Nemo" (i so love that movie!) and shopping gift cards!! And as you heard from Knotty how an awesome big family Christmas we had so it was all good. I actually got great gifts from everyone but I was more excited of how much everyone like the gifts I got them so I was happy about that mostly.
Now I've got to get working on still finding a job out in the east bay before I move soon (so if anyone can help hook it up!) tehee and especially burn off all the damn holiday food. Yes, I did pig out (not because im a boar) but because I got to relax and that includes eating (hehe) so just did a great workout with the little sissies having dance practice (i pulled a hamstring ouch!) but it s all good. Anyways, time for bed hope everyone is enjoying the rest of the holidays and have a great new years!! Peas!!

not feelin' it

2003-12-24T04:26:48Z

Ick.. well I am officially sick and I am now in phase two of my sickness which is "the cough". I started with the sinus headache and nasal congestion and now im with the sniffles and cough is coming on strong. I called in sick today and ended up going to take the girls and "the boy" out to the mad mess at the mall and walmart so that was a double wammy. So done finally wrapping with gifts but wish i didn't have the holiday blues. Ive had it for the past couple weeks and can't seem to shake it off. Hopefully when i recover from my illness I will also be able to recover from my depression. Anyways, cheers to you and Merry Christmas!!

another reminder to confirm that im alive

2003-12-23T11:01:15Z

ick.. im so tired.. just worked from 2 30 pm - about midnight today/yesterday (whatever.it's late). This past week has been crazy, they've kept us past our end time every damn night for an extra hour and a half or so. And tonight seemed to be way busier than last monday and it sucked. At least the shift went by fsst because I am too out of it to notice. Yes, that's right I'm getting sick AGAIN. If my memory corrects me the last time I was sick was around Thanksgiving. How convenient that I become ill just around another holiday *sigh*. At least thoughout my shitty weekend I was able to shop for presents on my only day off (which was sun) even if I did go alone. But I should be used to that by now. Im alone all the time: when i wake up everyone's gone (school etc), when im at work, driving, and when I get home like right now and everyone's asleep. But it should be ok this week at least since the girls and the boy don't have school hah. I need a puppy or something haha. Anyways I have Christmas day off at least -one of the good things about working a governmental job :)
And I got to wrap presents too. One of my favorite things to do (so what if im a perfectionist!) I just love getting the right gift for people..I love being a capricorn teehee. Anyways, wish me luck with surviving this week with this weak, blobby body and pray that I don't get too sick. Apparently everyone at work heard that I'm not feeling well because I left work early Sat night. Its nice to know my co-workers care though. I would really love to go to the ddr party at kudos but unfortunately im working WHAT ELSE DO I DO?!!! I just wish I'd get paid more for what I do so i don't have to work so much. Ok goodnght all and have a great week. PEAS!!!

damn tick keeps ticking!!! aaaarrrghhhh >< *

2003-12-18T09:51:40Z

Well this weeks seems to be great except for that damn twitch/tick in my right eye! I woke up to it this morning and had to deal with it all day grr.. and work didn't help either..although I did have fun with my co-workers/friends, we got hella busy at the end of the night so they kept us an hour long so I worked like from 1 to 11pm and man did it suck!!! I was so sore still from the previous night, i had a twitch in my right eye and just developed a muscle spasm in my scalp (i know, wierd) and I can't feel my fingers!!! I can't wait for this season to end (as much as i love it) but work is literally killing me.. I'll just smile brightly when I get that good feelin' paycheck though. hehe
I'm excited abt LOTR: ROTK coming out..I don't know when I'm going to see it but mr.bunny and I are planning to go someday (when i don't work). Oh well, that's about it if anyone wants to get me an early xmas or bday (jan 13th) gift a pass to a day spa would be great so I can relieve all this tension.. arrghh..*sigh* ok well gotta figure out what classes Im going to take next semester cheers!!

...still...alive....>

2003-12-17T10:15:06Z

Yes, its true Im alive -for those noticing that I haven't posted for awhile (probly no one but anyways..teehee) I just survived the busiest day of the year on monday and it was freakin' exhausting. I was there at work for 10 bloody hours!!! But we all got thru it and we're still busy (worked 10 hrs today too)..*ick*..and it'll be like this for awhile until Christmas comes and goes at least.
So all I've been doing is work work and work and haven't had time to shop but this sunday will be that great day. I can't wait because xmas is my favorite holiday and i love to buy gifts for ppl and i love to shop! I sometimes get carried away though..one time I spent way too much.. hopefully I can get everyone a great gift and still be able to pay my car payment that's all i need to do. Other than that I'm almost ready to throw on my nikes and shop till I drop. I think me and mr. bunny are planning to go shopping at the mall in San Jose and get it all done in one day (since sun is my only day off ><) So it'll be a great funfilled day.
So far I haven't "gone postal" at postal yet hehe. But I have noticed this tick or twitch in my right eye I've had since monday and it s annoying the crap out of me! ><* I think im stressing way too much but I also think im doing a good job at handling it so hopefully my head won't explode. *sigh* My body is unfortunately very sore and tight with knots..im dying for a great thorough massage..><.. its hard to do my 2am workouts too..but oh well..so that's the latest with me..hope everyone is enjoying the great holidays and have a wonderful christmas!!!...and try not to get too fat..hehe

no time to sleep...

2003-12-14T02:56:53Z

Well today was a nice day.. had to get up early today to drop off the "beaver" (that's davons new name jo-lo and i decided this late last night haha) at dumplings house and drive all the way back home to get to work at 3pm. It kinda sucked because the girls and I were up late last night till like 4am talking and squawkin'. It was cool but knew i needed the rest but good feeling work was slow today and so now im home after only working 3 hours instead of 8 (whoohoo) and my only day off is tmw too >< but anyways i got my first gift today from the dumpling and im so excited!! I wonder what it is... *shakes box -again* hehe ok well going to make good use of my time and look for employment out near where im going to be moving so wish me luck! *thanks sis!

great turnover (and i don't mean the pastry :P )

2003-12-12T21:39:21Z

Well last night was quite interesting. Seeing how yesterday morning was realy shitty (meg u know..) my day at work seemed pretty good. I put all my negative moods away and focused on trying to have a nice day with my friends and co workers. But the interesting part was at the end of my shift when it seemed like a total scene from some movie. Well to give a breifing I was upset with my guy and ended up hating him for the whole day.. but of course seeing how im such a nice person (haha) i can't stay mad so long so at the end of the day I was thinking "man if this was like a movie my guy would show up at my work at the end of my shift sitting next to my car with flowers". So im sitting there at my terminal thinking this and so the end of my shift comes and I go walking out to my car but no one was there. And Im thinking "oh well he better at least call..", so I get to my car and when Im about to put the key in my door from out of nowhere my guy pops right in front of me and says "hi babe".
Im like standing there shocked thinking " oh my god i can't believe this just happened!". So of course I was happy that he was there (seeing how he lives like 2 hours away) and I told him I wasn't mad at him anymore and he said he was sorry. And I told him "dude, you just hella read my mind because I was just thinking that you'd be out here sitting on my car with flowers and you did ..well without the flowers part" and right when i said that he pulled out of nowhere a small red rose. And I was even more shocked and surprised. I just stood there gushing and every little bad thing that happened to me this past week just all melted away.. so this morning i went with him to livermore for a job interview and just had a great time together. So now everything seems right in the world and its good. :) Isn't wierd how life can throw u curves like that? man..

shit has returned

2003-12-11T20:59:08Z

damn is this week shitty .. especially today..i hate boys!! i think i never want to be in any type of relationship ever again. Its just too much so all those boys in line out there.. you all have to go (haha)j/k Man, this is a great start of a new day which just confirms what a shitty week this has become. Lets just say someone i care about and thought cared about me has turned up to be the jerk that hes shown he is. But then i start to feel bad and stuff and know he s a great guy..that's what sucks about being a capricorn- you're just too damn nice. *sigh*..well this will be a great start for me to go to work..i said it before and ill say it again "TO HELL WITH IT ALL!!" that is all :'(

what a shitty day!!

2003-12-11T08:03:25Z

Just as I was afraid it would be my wednesday sucked!! Bad enough I slept in till noon, I didn't have time to get my laundry done before heading off to work so I had some crappy clothes on for the rest of the day. Work was ok but I was in an overall depressed state. It was just one of those days...I didn't feel like socializing with any of my work friends or anything..I guess I just felt lonely..the weather can always have an affect on my mood as well.*sigh*. so for lunch I didn't care so I had mcdonalds (and those ppl out there KNOW how i am abt eating mcd's) didn't bother thinking about calories at all today.. i shut down my calorie-meter in my head..it was just an icky day. I coudn't focus well at work either.. i kept messing up and was just praying they weren't editing me (kinda like grading) for the work i did today. I didn't even bother to say hi to brandon "the guy" at work who i kick it with..eh to hell with it all..so now its raining..im cold..alone..and feel fat (again..damn those fries!!) but I should hopefully feel better tmw..ok well that was my day..same old stuff..im getting used to working there for 8 plus hours though.. next week we're doing 10!! yay.. haha ok well ill drown my sorrows with ice cream!! haha Nothing beats a bad mood by stuffing ur face some more hehe ok goodnight!!

the blob!!

2003-12-10T08:24:20Z

ick! i feel so blobby..must've been that ice cream sandwich i just had for din-din. yumm... hehe anyways, work was ok .. kind of slow they gave us a two hour lunch instead of the typicall half hour that s how slow it was but it picked up later in the night(as always). I always think back at the time when I used to rush all the way over to freakin' riverbank for mci..boy how i don't miss that.. but i do miss the ppl and friends there.. :( Anyways, just finishing up online here and about to go work out and get this blobby feeling off of me :) hope big pink sister had big pink eye gone now !! and Im soo sorry that you have to bust your ass Kudo!! I wish i could help u out..try not to lose ur head ok? ok goodnight!!!